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I remember a season in my life where I seemed to be absorbed with earning money to live and pay my bills. I also gave a tithe to the Lord even though in reality the tithe was coming from my line of credit or credit card due to the debt load we were carrying. The cycle was stressful and seemingly relentless.
However, at one point I recall pondering what was life really about. What was my true motivation for working? Was I really fulfilling the call of God upon my life? Or had I found myself caught up in an endless cycle of working each day to pay the bills to start all over again next day?
As I began to ponder these questions and pray about it, I came to a new understanding. I really wanted to be obedient to the Lord and focus on what He had for me - to begin to see my life and calling from His perspective. I wanted to not be caught up in a continuous cycle that was unsatisfying and unfulfilling.
I realized that I had gotten caught up in the trap of working to earn money for present day realities, having a life I had always dreamt of and felt I deserved because I worked so hard, and for future days when I would be retired.
Gradually this process of self-reflection led to a change of employment and focus. I had a sense of needing to re-calibrate with a focus on pursuing what God had for me in this season even with a wife and growing children.
Following my decision, I even let go of an offer for a six-figure salary to walk into the unknown. The story of Abraham and his sojourn into the unknown became my comforting refrain. Colleagues could not wrap their thinking around my decision, yet one remarked how envious he was of me, getting out of the day-to-day grind and stepping into the freedom of something different.
Three days after leaving my job, the Lord amazingly open up a new opportunity – one that I had not anticipated. It allowed for a different pace of life and a different focus. No longer was I demanded to be available 24/7 by mobile or pager. I could choose my own working hours.
I found myself being able to have concentrated time with the Lord and growing spiritually in a new way. I realized that He wanted to reveal to me His Father’s heart and love for me. It was not how hard I could work to live life, but how much I could trust Him with my life and the needs of my loved ones.
My heart entered into a new place of rest in His love and provision. Somehow I began to see how He cares so much for us, even greater than the birds of the air and the flowers of field.
My focus shifted to resting in His provision for my every need. I no longer needed to feel stressed out trying to earn the money to cover everything I thought was important in life. The more I learned to lean into Him, to rest and trust Him for everything and follow His leading, I deeply knew He would look after me and the needs of my family. I am so grateful for this new level of freedom in my journey with Him.
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